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SuddenlyJamie's avatar

Love your writing. It just pulls me along, feeling a bit like Mr. Toad’s wild ride, but with an unexpectedly grounded center.

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Rebecca Barry's avatar

Thanks so much, Jamie, I love your writing too! (I especially loved what you recently wrote about not listening to other voices--I am so with you on that.) And of course, it's always an honor to be compared to Mr. Toad.

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David Barry's avatar

Love your son’s hilarity at mom getting into drunken fight at party! Hilarious! Let’s hear more about her!

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Rebecca Barry's avatar

Ha ha, stay tuned. Luckily, she's been quiet lately, but the year is still young!

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Laura Davis's avatar

Just checking out your Substack for the first time and just love your raw candor. You hooked me right away from word 1.

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Rebecca Barry's avatar

Thank you so much!

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Laurie Stone's avatar

Love it. Love you. xxL

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Rebecca Barry's avatar

Same.

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Roxana Robinson's avatar

Lovely, Rebecca.

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Rebecca Barry's avatar

Thank you, Roxana! Also, my friend Sarah wants me to tell you THANK YOU for the Washington Post piece you wrote on polio. She absolutely loved it.

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MFrances Littin's avatar

Thanks for speaking your soul out loud. How else can it be heard?

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Rebecca Barry's avatar

Thanks for listening, Fran!

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Ortrun Franklin's avatar

I could truly relate to your inner frustration, always the "Hero" with no reward. But, aren't we to give "without" thought of return. Not meant to guilt. It is tough "growing". Thanks for sharing of yourself. It allows others to realize "that they are not alone". You are the Hero for getting beyond the challenge.

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Rebecca Barry's avatar

Thank you Ortrun! I loved this because I just found notes from some work you and I did together after Mom died, and we were talking about that being the final lesson: pure, unconditional love. Do you remember? Which was where I got to by the time she died, and it was so amazing. But sheesh! I had to go through a lot of feelings to get to that place!

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Bethany B's avatar

I can relate to the grief, and losses we experience, sometimes slowly, and while the person is still here. It's hard!

Thank you for saying it.

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Rebecca Barry's avatar

Thanks, Bethany!

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Jill Swenson's avatar

Gutted me (in a good way).

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Rebecca Barry's avatar

Thank you!

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Vince Roman's avatar

Love this!!!

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Rebecca Barry's avatar

Thank you, Vince!

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Diana's avatar

I loved the part about your son too, so funny! Gah, those superhero movies. (What is it with America's obsession with superheroes anyway?) I can so relate to this post. Love it.

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Rebecca Barry's avatar

It really is crazy, the way we love that one person fighting armies all by themselves. Why? Who wants to do that? And are the rest of us that powerless? I'm so glad you related. I'm not surprised ;). Thanks for reading!

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Mary Lou Buschi's avatar

I love this post! I wish I was at that party. I would have been screaming, Yay! Let's get out of here and go cry. And then we'd laugh a lot.

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Rebecca Barry's avatar

Oh, I wish you were too. That is exactly what we would have done. I always wish you were at the party with me. We should just have our own party. Screaming! Crying! Laughing!

The full catastrophe!

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Dorothy Lyman's avatar

Yes dear friend. So honest.

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Rebecca Barry's avatar

Thank you, Dorothy. Miss you.

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Alyssa D.'s avatar

xxxxoooooooo

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Tim Holloway's avatar

Thank you for this exploration into the shared human experience of love and grief. I loved the line about not being lost. It's all part of the mysterious journey. The more we travel the more we can feel comfortable in uncharted territory. 💚

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